I think I forgot?

The rain
The wind
The way it all began
The dark
The light
Everything seems right
The up
The down
Even when know ones around
The rights
The wrongs
Sounds the the same song
Never this
Always that
Fuck Frick
And Frat
I dont fret
Fourtanly I have a mind
That loves to forget

I can

I can see your heart

From all the way over here

Even though

You hide it out of fear

I can feel your smile

From all the way over there

Even though 

You like me to think it isn't there

I can smell your love

From miles away

Even though

You left it stayed

I can hear your laughter

Through the trees 

Swarming around me 

Like honey bees

I can read in between 

Your lines

Because you can never be 

Up Front

But somethings you know

And somethings you wont

Late nights

Late night laughs
Late night talks
Late night walks
Late night sitting in the car its
Late night visits
Late night kisses
Late night love
Late night hugs
Late night shoulder shrugs
Late night tears
Late night fears
Late night wishing you was here

Sun up all is gone

All it was was late nights all along

prototype

You ever been so done
So tired
That you
Trying to
Figure out just how
In the hell
Did I get here in the First place

Its hard not to care
But slowly Im learning
That everyone does not
Deserve my sympathy

The type of heart I have
Seems to be to big for the fearful
The type of mind I have is too
Strong for the feeble
My personalities are multiple
But none of them are equal
My being is never ending
So im working on my infinite squeal

Stop complaining a long time ago
Learned how to let things go
So easily
That people now wanna go with my flow
I am the prototype

Are you listening

Sometimes you can have conversations
Over and over again
And still not understand
The thought process
Of the person

But are you listening
Not hearing not
Comprehending

But are you listening

Take some time and let
The words sink in
Cause truthfully

When I have a conversation
I play it over and over again

Just something that I recommend

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What a day if I must
Joy and all that other
Stuff
Happy to say that I know
Just which way is so
Somethings you cant control
Most things are kinda getting old

Instead of going this way I go
That way
That way keeps me safe

What a day the same day I met
My faith and realized that
All my days will change

Nothing left to say
Everything just flipped
Like a light switch

In the dark where I started
The light I knew wasnt as bright
As I thought
More fluorescent
The one that keeps you guessing

Good Morning

As I wake up
And open my eyes
My dreams are still playing

Then I realize
That I am up
First thought to my mind
Is
What the fuck

Here we go again
But the great-fullness
Sets in

I look over to my right
And then I began

To think of all the love
I have received
All the times I haven't been deceived
All the times I didn't have to worry
All the times I dont have to cry
All the things I dont have to plead for
All the stability that has came my way
And its actually like that everyday

I never knew true consistency exist
Especially after all the bull shit
I never knew I could live in bliss
Especially after all this

I never knew love could come so easy
And that a person could actually see me
Take the time and actually be me
  And for that I say Good Morning .

Working it out

Nothing is whats on the surface
Surpassing what what we think is best
How can we judge others
When we dont have our shit in check
I promise that when I speak
I try to connect

Not all the time what we think is best
Because Thinking is dangerous
So I say whats comes to mind first
Even thought that would be
Considered an outburst

My thoughts are compressed
My hearts in distress
The world is mess
No one wants to confess
To the forbidden fruit
That we indulge in
Never thought the first time
But let me think again

Just when

Just when you get a routine
A mother fucker wanna change
The scene
I mean damn
Thought shit was
Serene

I laugh out loud
Because when I really
Like actually
Want to
Bitches be like
Fuck you

And thats cool
Cause im always
Gonna be cooler
Then the other side of the
Pillow
I dont wallow
I rise from the stem
Like A pussy willow

Well

Have you ever felt like you just wanted to be alone
Just you and your thoughts
Hell maybe not even them
Just you being
In your being
Being
Whoever
With whomever
Whenever
Doing all the
Thing that are forbidding
All the things that are wrong
I want
But just for one day
Just one moment
Just freeze time
Just so I can feel
And be
Just so I can be free
No judgement
Just the feeling of and epiphany
Or maybe a symphony
I just what was meant for me

Really

Some thing never go away
Most things never stay the same
Life is full of dreams
Things
All I want is
What seems non
Negotiable
Knowing that
The only way to go is up
But most times I get
Stuck
Or should I say
Caught up
But thats the way I
Wanna go
Right?
or
Wrong
Same dance
Same song
Trying to bring
Some new moves
But I cant catch the
Beat
Feeling
Defeated
Depleted
Deflated
So I just
Faded away
Something like MJ

Done??

To whom it may concern
My eyes weep
Just to think
Yeah its true all things
Must end
But when you first start
Things seem like
They can never be Tart
I learned myself a lesson
That I wouldn't mind learning again

Consistent or Nah

So whats it gonna be
Cause I can see
That thee obvious arent the fact
Speaking through
What is and whats not
Between the We's
And Who's
The Why's and
What's
In so many ways
Truly I dont give a fuck
Somethings you can turn on
And most things I can turn off
My happiness
Is mine alone
And thats
What real
No matter what you try to
Conceal
Or steal
Because
Truth is
I am a refection of you
I just did what you did
Never a complement
Just competition
And repetitions
But never Consistent

Yup

Yup I feel some type of way
Cause dammit
You make me feel some type of way
Like back in the day
The things we use to say
The things we use to do
Or  how we were misconstrued
So now Im confused
I never signed up for
Feelings in which are mixed
Lets be honest
I never signed up
I was chosen
Then thrown back to the water
Like a bad fish
Im good cause im home again
Dont feel alone again
Feels like im back on that thrown again
Even though they tried to knock me off
Take all the life from me
But for the life of me
I cant quite see how beneficial it is
For thee.
To whom it may concern
There are sooooo many lessons I have learned
So many roads I have crossed
So many bridges built
But yet and still I
Have to lean my head back and tilt
Nope there is no guilt
Cause when I give
All of me goes
Then I gotta go and retrieve me
From these hoes
But a piece of me always stays
Cause I been told im to hard to
Let go
A gift and curse
With less love dispersed
Isnt a gift at all

Maybe

Maybe I can
Sometimes I just think
Maybe I don't want to
Maybe I'm being selfish
Maybe not
Maybe its not yet to let go
Maybe Im not ready
Maybe Im afriad
Maybe Im too connected
Maybe I should just disconnect it
Maybe I dont know how to
Maybe time will heal
Maybe it wont
Maybe it just something that I will replay
Maybe something will replace it
Maybe Im just holding on too tight
Maybe I think too much
Maybe Im just extra
Maybe Im too vested
Maybe enough wasnt enough
Maybe I should be
Maybe one will always get away
Maybe nothing matters
Maybe the feeling are mutual
Maybe they arent
Maybe love really does come in different forms
Probably not
Oh well

This or That

Always in a situation
So many complications
Too much discrimination
Trying to find a conclusion
To all the delusions
But I can't control
What I don't know
So I attempt to let it go
Let it flow like my girl
Tonie B
Cause I can see where
These thoughts are leading me
Where they preside
Its proceeding me
Pulling me in like
Magnetic putty

Missed

11 weeks
Mild and meek
For you I seeked
But they say you
Dont exist
I dont wanna except this shit
But to go on is what I have to do
This is bull
I know that too
So what is the reasons
When will it be our season
The smallest things is what I want the most
10 little finger and toes
I feel like Ive been exposed
Maybe I tricked myself in to thinking
That you exist
Maybe because I
Know that you are the pure bliss
That I think of all the time
You always are and will still be on my mind
Ill keep are secret locked up
In my heart
Until its time to reveal
I know im not crazy cause
I know your real maybe not now
But in my life you do exist
So until then ill just think of you
MY TRUE BLISS

I never knew

You never know your relevance

Till you think your irrelevant

 Time goes as the days 

So you think you have settled it

It kinda cool to know that you think

That im relevant

While you gallivant bout me 

To your life im celibate

Wind blowing ear to ear

Im smiling with substance 

Thinking about you see

Your nothing I wanted

Yeah we all play the fool 

But now im playing my trumpet

Hear the horns

Loud and clear 

Man I think they erupting

Over flowing with LOVE

Cause you see there is something

Do worry bout what I m doing

Cause i see you do nothing

Blaming me clearly I can see you have

Nothing 

Dont put me in the shit cause thats something 

You wanted

Something you

Stuck with

Now you Trying to duck

Figuring It Out

 My life has changed
In so many different ways
Some for the better and some for the worst
But I dont even know where to start first

Life took a turn on me
Somethings happen with people
That I never thought would be
Sometimes it still confuses me

But through it all Im still me
Whoever that may be
But still I be

Learning trying to figure out
What my soul is yearning for
One foot in and one out the
The door
Leading to the the unknown

Although I thought I did I've
Really never known
Like a dog digging multiple holes
For one bone

Just trying to find my home
Get in my zone.