Lazy Love

Feelings are for the moment

For me they last for ever 

Most people desegregate

But I become intimate

The climate is dry

Feelings allow me to be

Spirit just follows me

So matter how it looks

I know how it will always be

Security is scary

Insecurity is petrifying

The unknown is daring

Routine is boring

Comfort is far from real

Phony is evident  

Real smiles arent hidden

But when you do things out of spite 

You never win

Find yourself

Making a point

But your never on

Love will drive you crazy

Especially when is LAZY

Somethings you just know!

When your spirit speaks to you
You listen
Love is out here on a mission
Beautiful as it is
The purity of it
Ill place nothing above
I just wanna reach out and hug it
I did the right thing
Loved the right way
Cant blame me this time
Sometimes things happen
Just as hard as it is
Its just that easy
Im eased see
Sometimes your heart just knows
Glad I let go
Flourish
Live

Peak

Its my fault cause I pressed the issue
Understanding now that
We literally cant be friends
Knowing whole heartily
That I selfishly wanted you apart of my life
Because of my relationship with LOVE
But just realizing my love is top strong
And crippling to thee
So ill bow out
Comprehending that my position
Is null and void
Acceptance is my new path
I apologize for the stance I've taken
Growing and Learning I can admit
Something I have mistaken
I know whats real
Thats beyond clear
No malice
All love
Just realization over here

Control

New day
New light
Love remains
Its such a beautiful thing
Platonic love seems to come
With unwanted boundaries
But who are we
To control
Love
When clearly it controls
Thee, Him, Her And me
Selfishly 

Living

Change is hard
Growing old is hard
Learning and acceptance
Is the path that I am now on
Trying to find a snug place to fit
In this world so big yet so small
What is meant for me
I don't need it all
But sometimes I don't know what I need
Floating seems to be the role I play best
Sometimes I feel like
My presence is not needed
Like I could help better from a distance
Of non existence
I could help more people if im a spirit
It would also upset less people if I weren't 
In human form
Less dissapoinment
Everyone loves
The ones that have passed on 
Just a thought
Or my secret reality
Trying to hold myself down
With no gravity
Grasping the air
Knowingly
But
Thats
Life.

My Current Situation

Who I use to be

I'm not who I use to be
So I gotta stop acting like it

Soft spots
Unspoken words
Lingering thoughts
Unfinished
Conversations that are one sided
You don't owe me
So while do I feel like I owe you
When I know that's not true
So much fuel but no fire
Unless its your sign
Spoken words
But where is the time
1000 Good mornings
But no response
I cool with that
I just cant fall back

I'm not who I use to be
So I gotta stop acting like it

My core will never change
I have just enhanced my capabilities
My future is my responsibility
I never needed so whats different now
I will set my own standard
I cant expect people to show up for me
But I will respect you from a distance
I will not be loved with resistance
If you cant embrace me
Then erase me

I'm not who I use to be
So I gotta stop acting like it

I'm more agile
My hearts bigger
My mind is sharper
My senses are wider

I'm not who I use to be
So I gotta stop acting like it

But why do I expect more?