Curious

Every word

In every song is 

Digested

I wonder 

Are you singing to me

Are you thinking of me

I listen so carefully

Not missing a word

Imagine you singing 

To me freely

At least thats what I think

But if not

Dont tell me diffent

Ill just listen

And continue 

Listing all my favs

Thinking about 

Late nights

Memories under the stars

Thats where they live

And more often then not

I like to vist

I smile with my whole

Being listening 

I can feel 

I see

I can smell

I just wonder 

Paramour

You every been on the boat
Back and fourth
You know the one at the amusement park
But the feel isn't to amusing
The initial sway is fun
I love going up
But I hate coming down \
That how I  feel everyday
On edge
Waiting
Restlessly
Constantly
Consistency deserves consistency
But once again thats one sided
Let me pump my breaks
Yeah I tried it
Its hard
Taking the backseat
Hell im in the trunk
Just waiting for you
To remember im there
But I know my place
Ill be waiting for you
To come and pop the
Trunk if only for a moment
Ill be waiting
I hate being on other peoples time
But this time I promised myself
I would be diffrent
But how
Impulse is a bitch

Hear That

This thing is tricky
Trying to stay out
Of a sticky situation
You know that one that causes
An eruption
Trying to tame the volcano
From emploding
Im overloading
Which way to go then
I just go up
And shut it down
Nothing left
Like a lost town
But beyond it all
I hear a faint sound
That cant be
What I think
So I take a min and stop
Frequency so high my
Brains bout to pop
Close my eyes dont move
I come to a stand still if
I listen too close it will all
Become real again

Just my Thoughts

Word Feud
But we not feuding
Trying to find the right words
With out misusing
Trying to be
Respectful
But my mind has so many thoughts
Feelings
Trying to find the right vowle
Fuck it ill just swap
Just to keep the attention of my opponent
I got words
But imma save em
So keep passing so
The game will go
Faster
Undivided
All for me
Even if its moments
Ill take em see
Im easily pleased
I slipped up
But im back on track
Everyone
Cant handle my honesty
So I can only be me with them
At least there I can be free

Split

Trying to not be sucked in
By the vortex
That seems to have a hold on me
Once its lifted it hard to control
Mind racing so much anticipation
Waiting
Like I dont have a life
Making space
Clearing time
Ready to move at the drop of the dime
Most dont realize
That gravity comes in different forms
As do magnetic forces
Once they have gotten
In a space
The pull is undeniable
How do I pull away from
This familiar place
Of empty space filled with
All the things I cant see
In the light of dark
All it took was one spark
My dreams
My being

42 songs later

There is so much space in my head
For all the things that I cant have
42 songs later and I've lived the perfect life
I seen the first dance
Rice being thrown
I looked down and seen
The bump
I looked into the eyes of love
And cried the longest tear of joy
Leaving all my fears at the alter
I see the white fence
I can feel myself waking up
Making breafast
By song 26
Making love becomes more
Then just making love
Disagreements become
Distant
But not at all non existant
Kids grown and out the house
Work is close to retirement
By song 39
Love has showed all side
Good
Bad
Ugly
But though it all
Everything still exist
Promises made
And are kept
My happily ever after
42 songs later
I have lived the best lifetime
In my head
With no objections
Something I do quite often..

Music

Each song hits me
The melody surrounds me
Swallowing me up into endless
Memories
Every verse of every hits
And consumes me
One tear falls down
Maybe even more
Next fills my ears
With too much reality

My goodness Ginuwine
Takes me back in time
An emotional roller coaster
Singing everything I feel
The jagged edges of my heart
Being to pierce my soul
Re living all things that make me whole

New music brings new emotions
But the same feelings
Im crushing on every song
Mesmerized 24/7
By the voice of
One of the Edmonds

The music penetrates me
In ways that I never knew
I can feel see and smell
Thee final days of the last
Melody that melted my heart
Feenin'

Early Mornings

The sun rises
But I beat it
Eyes wide in the dark
Try to adjust
Fine tune
My vision
The cold hits me
As if Im in debt to it
Deep breath
The air fills my lungs
It taste like
No worries
And feels like
The coldest blanket
On hottest night
I smile
Because I hate the cold
But I love to snuggle
Hat and gloves
Im suited and booted
Get in my car
Listen to my music
It fills my soul
With memories
And premonitions
The melody encourages me
To say all the things I will never say
Songs finshed
Thoughts are diminished
Time to start my day

With grace

3:54 up to pee
Fuck it mine as well stay up
I cant go back to sleep
They say sleep is for the weak
But who are they to speak
I sleep to escape my reality
But that doesn't help much
My dreams and reality are
To much in touch

So into work I go
But there is never enough
Of anything to keep me distracted
Come early leave early
Then its me again
Alone with my thoughts
What does it really mean to be fullfilled

Everything is great
But nothing is good
Still on that journey
To no where
Not 100% sure how I got here
But I going to ride this wave
Gracefully

For Me

Something you cant pay for
Most things you cant ask for
So when something is given to me
I cherish it like
A thousand kisses
I have to admit that I have been given
So many options
But unlike most
I got to choose two
In the mist of my heartbreak
The universe first brought me you
The things you showed me about love
And how unconditional it can be
6 year later and you still got me on the
Edge of my seat
I look in your eyes
And I see me
Knowing that I am the apple of it
Ups and downs we go through
But though it all its still us plus
Which became we
And although we get a lot of criticisms
And some people think its unforgiven
Its our best life we are living and its all
FOR ME