Almost

How to wear my hair

What outfit to where

What scent should I put on

Do I look fat

Should I smile

Dont look to interested

Dont light up like a Christmas tree

No eye contact

These are the stuggles

Of loving thee

Almost feel out my chair when I heard a knock

Almost asked

Almost got upset when I seen time dwindling 

Almost stayed later in hopes to get my fix

Almost called by accident

Almost emailed 

Almost cried

But I made it threw

Because I know I will have 

Another opportunity 

To bask

A better opportunity 

To stalk

More space to be consumed in

I feel trouble coming 

But I will attempt to contain myself